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um, 2013 started off shitty just like the year before it. i hvnt been positively happy in quite a long time cs you know those feelings where you dont feel like smiling cs u hv no one. i just needed one person, just one to share stories & secrets with & knowimg s/he really cares & listens to them & promises to keep quiet & actually meant it, tht never talks behind your back no matter what, to make you laugh every secomd you breathe, to actualy be happy for you when good things happen in your life & not phony 'OMG SO GREAT OMG OMG YES' or 'kill me now i cant breathe' but to rlly call me straight up tellng she's happy for me, a person who wld never make me feel any different than who i rlly am & not those friends who could subtly alter yr personality, the one who'd make me feel like hanging out w them feels like the most comfortable thing evr, yang dont care when ppls looking, tht wld never make u feel dumb by the actions or things u do but infact be there doing stupid dumb most retarded hings w you, that wld definitely hold ur hair back when you vomit & not be disgusted & runs away, tht wld be w me 24/7, tht wld go crazy & talks a lot tht wants nobody as a friend but my own self tht is easily adaptable, tht wld let u fart infront of them hahahaha to joke around anywhere knowing judgemental people are doing their successful all time job judging but dont give a single fuck. that wld take countless of photos w me & most importantly tht cld make anything fun & adventourous. sigh bestfriends pick u up frm the mitherfucking airpot tahu but i'm tired of waiting already. i just want to move, i promise i wld be better jst let me move.